We didn’t even have to wait at the gynae’s. Went right on in and told me to take my knickers off. Why do they leave the room when you undress anyway? They’re still going to see more of you than you would like to admit.
So she did another internal. The shadow is just a bleed – either from implantation, or later. It is an intra-uterine pregnancy. It’s just really small. Too small. 11mm at 6-7’ish weeks with no heartbeat. Not even a whisper. The instrument said 4weeks6days. Apparently progesterone causes tender boobs, and oestrogen makes you nauseous. My boobs weren’t so tender anymore, and I was only nauseous after taking folic acid.
This is why I like my gynae. First of all, she’s a she… with kids. She doesn’t want to be your friend, she’s your physician. She gives you the facts, the options, the decisions.
We have a 10% chance of a successful pregnancy with this blob. She said that we can try progesterone for 2 weeks and see if it helps. Repeat the scan then and confirm viable pregnancy. I asked her about the physical or mental condition of the baby IF this one will come to term. What are the chances of it still being normal. She said that we check for that with the detailed sonar and genetic abnormality test about halfway.
I had a lot to think about.
And this is why I love my GP. She wants to be your friend. She celebrates your good news and shares your heartache. She phoned me today. So we discussed the findings and options.
I told her that I feel like not going through with the synthetic progesterone supplement. There is a reason why nature decided not to let this zygote develop further on it’s own. Surely there is a good chance that there is something majorly wrong. I would rather wait out the 2 weeks and see what the repeat sonar says. She agreed with me.
It’s not giving up. I just don’t want to carry a intentiaj life, and love it wholeheartedly, only to loose it at 20 weeks – I won’t be able to handle that.
So we wait some more.